An update on the first chapter of my weight loss and journey to becoming a better, healthier me.
As many of you know, several months ago I decided to make some major changes in the way I ate. While I already ate “healthy” – I shunned artificial, processed and pre-made foods, kept sweets to a minimum and all that – but I wanted to do more. After a great deal of homework and debate, I decided to “go paleo.” I was determined. So much so, that I launched this blog, PALEOh Yum! to help myself commit to it.
Recently I have had several experiences that have helped me realize just how far I have come. Sometimes it is hard to see it when you look in the mirror. Aren’t we our own worst critics?
When I was at my “I’ve got to do something!” stage, I had reached the point where my leather belt that I always wear, was on its loosest hole. In all honesty, I needed to get a larger belt, but the thought of that just made me sick and frustrated with myself.
Well, a few weeks ago, I went to put on my belt as usual, but when I went to buckle it, it wouldn’t buckle. I thought “what in the world?” and looked to discover the reason it wouldn’t buckle. IT wouldn’t buckle because there were no more holes small enough. I needed to add a smaller hole!
When I had that realization, it actually choked me up a bit. I was shocked that I hadn’t even noticed the progression of movement along the row of belt holes.
The Farmers Market
One morning I was working at the farmers market and decided to get one of their t-shirts. I let the lady who was in charge know that when she had a minute, I would like to get one. Later she came over with the bin of shirts and asked me what sized I needed. When I answered her, her response was “Pfffssshaaawww! No you don’t. Girl, we’re the same size!”
That took me by surprise. I looked at her, looked at myself, and thought, “Really!?” And realized she was right. Check that off as another milestone on my road to healthy.
And then there is what happened this morning.
Several years ago, I packed two pair of jeans away in my closet. I had gained some weight and told myself that “someday” I would lose weight and get healthy and be able to wear them again. Some day.
Back in March, I reached a turning point. All of my current jeans were way too tight, I needed to go up a size, I felt terrible, I easily got winded and the final straw was when I saw myself – body shot – in a vlog I was editing. That morning I got on the scale and about choked on my coffee. I couldn’t believe what the scale said. That was the day I decided to “go paleo” and not play games with it anymore.
This morning as I was getting dressed, I put on my jeans and proceeded to “fold” the waist of the jeans into pleats so it would bunch together properly under my belt. I buckled the belt and looked at myself in the mirror.
You see, when I am not overweight, I have an hourglass figure. That’s both a blessing and a curse. A curse, because most jeans are NOT made for women with an hourglass shape. If they fit in the hips, they are too loose in the waist. I’ve only ever had one kind of jeans that properly fit me – Levi’s 529 jeans.
The kind of jeans I had tucked away in the closet for “some day.”
So I looked at my jeans, ridiculously bunched under my belt. I walked over to my closet, reached up and got down the box of packed away seasonal clothes. Down in the very bottom of that box were those two pairs of jeans.
I opened the box and took a pair out. Took a deep breath, and I stuck my feet into a pair…pulled them up…buttoned and zipped.
As someone who used to be very athletic and fit, I finally feel like I have turned the corner and really gotten on the path to getting back to where I need to be. Not only in the way I am eating, but being intentional about my activity – going for walks, exercising and being active and not just busy.
When I made the decision to do all of this, I actually decided to do a “before” photo so that I could look back and see my progression. As much as I hated taking it, I did and I am glad.
This “before & after” was done after only the first month.
This is a photo taken a year apart. I donned the same hat to more easily see the difference. You can tell I spend a great deal of time outdoors, by how much the hat has faded.
I still have more to go, more to achieve, but I am on the road. “Going Paleo” is not a diet. It is a lifestyle. And this is the life for me!